SHARDEYAS

Ati: Think...  What have we been able to institutionalize? Systematically...? Do we even have to read or get educated to understand what exists...? Shardeya: What happened, who is not listening to you know? Why are you agitated like this? Ati: Why do you think people drink? Shardeya: To pose a "Man"... Children drink milk, Women dont like it's bad smell... Besides when men cant take any risk and dont have trust on themselves they retreat into delirium just to fake strength and tolerate reality... Ati: The wine becomes because of act of microorganisms... In the bulk their population grows exponentially and then rapidly falls... It is cursed water... Evil water... Yet...? Shardeya: It was a read in a book somewhere... I remember - Robert . V. Svoboda... The law of "karma"... Ati: Can you see how we live? Engaged in work and prayers... !!! Just like the microorganisms were engaged in multiplying... Wouldn't they have tried to make colonies, institutionalize sys

 Shardeya... Poor Shardeya... Does he have any way to escape Ati's company...!!! Ati certainly will not die before Shardeya... Meanwhile he has to tolerate Ati throughout his life... Shardeya has spent most of his time as any normal child belonging to any average middle class family... A family that holds education superior to any other wealth... Ati on the other hand has been a demon inside the head of Shardeya... "Choose what you want - 'To live in shock' or 'To live in regret'... Decide what you want... " Ati has idea for both kind of lives...  "To live in shock, make plans, preparations and work towards the goal... To live in regret, trust the trend, count on your decisions and wander aimlessly while the time is lost..." Ati is as old as Shardeya... He has influenced Shardeya every second of his life... Shardeya has yielded to Ati on several of occasions... Is Ati ungrateful...? Now read what he says next... "Everyday your mood will deci

  Dear Sir, I am suffering from pangs of anxiety... There is nothing wrong with the team or the kind of work that are being offered... But still I am finding difficult to handle the ambience of the place... I am not too physically fit to be here... I guess I deserve to be earning Rs.3000 per month in a God Forsaken School which doesn't offer any future to anyone... Future suits better people and not me... When I was not getting a job anywhere,  you gave me one... But three months in one place is already a great feather on my cap considering my temperament... I like teaching and want to make a career as a teacher... I may never succeed... I feel so because I have faced more losses than gains... May be my God would be very angry with me... On leaving such a fabulous opportunity... but I sincerely believe that He should have been with me even in my anxious moments... There are a few things about the organization which I disliked as well... But there are more things to be liked over he

 Ati has a lots of concepts about time... The past, present and future... He lives miserably in the present... And his past becomes miserable... He dwells in his pasts...  The pasts especially in which his worth was underestimated, when his contributions and importance was denied, when his grace was questioned, when the events were managed without him which he takes for examples of how events happen independent of anyone's indulgence... "Use of time" is an obsolete concept... How can time be used... or saved? Who is early or who is late...? Time according to him determines use of an object... A stone lying on the ground suddenly becomes very useful in managing a bully... Otherwise, it lies where it is forever... If someone steals what you have won with your efforts, it is just your time invested in the past that gets eroded... So your time can be destroyed only if you have notion that it is segregated in an object... Just because erosion is inevitable, destruction of time

 "Ati" as the name suggests means "too much" is Shardeya's friend...  They have such bonding that they can complete each other's sentences...  And at times even before an act is initiated they can completely neutralize their intentions and motivations... Their lives together is the crux of matter in this blog... They both are reflectors of what happen around them... In Creative perspective they are both useless because of their education... Ati is ashamed of the certificates that he has earned... Because he is not given any more credit than what his certificates suggest... "Imagine getting disqualified because of over qualification..." Ati is a confused lonely fellow and from his conversations all the demons inside him talk... He is stupid, mischievous, cruel and very blunt when it comes to give an opinion...  To his credit he can hardly take anything as his identity comes into existence just in attempts to criticize the world or in criticizing Sha

Shardeya is my pen name. My original name never bought any luck. Sharda was my mother's name. "Shardeya" must be interpreted as "son of Sharda". I have no clue how all this is going to figure out. I personally am very choosy about what I will start reading and for how long I will continue it. I am sure the world is full of such people only, who like to write more than they like to read, speak a lot more than what they like to listen and think more than act. I have my doubts about my worth in contributing anything to literature. I am sure I must not be alone. I would however try to be relevant all the time. I believe that we write forever. I will try hard to keep my content of such quality; that may last useful for considerable duration of time. I am sincere about everything I have written. May the reader find everything written in the blog useful.